FAT
Posted by junocozmos on August 29, 2007
FAT.
Not a word I can say I ever used to describe myself. Pierce used to tell me I was fat when I was pregnant with Rowan, which I thought was funny given that I actualy was pretty large. But other than that I have always been in what I considered “good shape”. I used to be die hard martial artist, working out hard, 4 times a week, fighting once a week, and praticing at home as much as I could. Then I broke my ankle, and no longer have the mobility to do TaeKwonDo anymore. And in April I stopped smoking.
And I got real soft. I’ve gained about 20 lbs. Thats a lot. It feels like a lot.
My daughter told me I was “getting fat” this morning. It really stung. She was not trying to be mean, she was being honest. I was putting on my shirt and she just said…”Wow, mom you’re getting so fat!” .
Now I do yoga, and sit ups, and maybe I don’t remember or have time to do it every night but I’m not some coach potato either. I walks what seems to me like miles from one building on campus to another, and I run after kids that can best be described as “extremely active”.
I’d still rather be 20lbs heavier than have my kids clothes smell like smoke, or spend $60. a week in cigarettes. And I’ve never been one for diets, or diet pills. So I guess I’ll keep trying my stupid yoga, and sit ups. And hope that they eventualy work, although it’s been at least two months of doing it and if anything I’ve gained more weight.
So I’m bummed out.
It’s going to be like 103F again today. I can not wait until fall.
And I’m not well, I had a diverticulitus episode last night and I feel like shit still today.
I have an appointment with and advisor today to get things set up for the transfer to the BA program at NKU ( evidently you have to set that crap up right away). I hope to also get my core requirements figured out, and complain about the dumb math prof that made me even less intelligent than before I failed his class.
Obscure fact: Engineers should not teach math below Trig. Just sayin’.
Ick. Okay this pity party is officialy over.
anonymom said
Sounds like we’ve both gone soft. I was a competitive figure skater and I, too, broke my ankle and that was the end of that. My baby is still less than a year old, but I feel like I’m hangin’ onto a lot more baby weight than necessary. I find it incredible how the second time around that tummy does not snap back to it’s usual space. I could be mistaken for a pregnant chick, still. I actually have to do crunches one of these days, and I hate crunches with a passion.
anonymom said
OK, this is not related to your post! I wanted to request a photograph from you. My daughter’s name is “Autumn Rose” and I want a nature photo to represent her…wanted to see what you might come up with. Don’t rush out and do it especially for me, just keep the idea tucked away in the back of your mind and let it spring forth when it will.
junocozmos said
Oh YAY!!!! of course I will!
What’s she like? She into girly stuff or tomboy, she outgoing, shy, gimme some info on her personality to Junocozmos@zoomtown.com and I’ll totaly do it!!!! : )
nodramaplease said
Hey sis I know how you feel when your diverticulitus acts up it keeps me on the couch for at least one whole day I think that all the women in the family get it.